So I know its been a while. But you know things just always seem to get in the way. I have had writing on my to do list for weeks….you know I love lists! That’s the only way I get things done most days. And even then there just aren’t enough hours in the day! So each week I keep adding it to my list in hopes that by some miracle I will make the time. And yet here I am its been months since my last entry. And it amazes me how much happens in that amount of time. Some things you have complete control over and some just come along no matter whether we are ready or not! And sometimes what we ask for….we actually get! For so many months we were so stressed because I did not have a job. And we definitely had a lesson in our faith over those 8 months. Faith in knowing that God had a plan for us. A plan for me. A plan that involved something greater. A place that would truly allow me to use my experience and knowledge. A place that would allow me to grow and continue to learn and a place that I could retire from. My change in job status left me in a very difficult place. A place I was not familiar with and that turned me into a person I didn’t know, that I didn’t like. But as time went on, I realized that I had to put the past in the past and let go of it if there was any way that I was going to move on. If there was anyway that I was going to be able to see the path that God had in store for me, the blessings that he had planned. If we continue to hold onto the past, there is no way you can move forward into the future. So after months of prayer, months of late night heart to heart talks with my husband, I was finally able to come to terms with what happened, that it was completely out of my control and that I did nothing wrong. The moment that happened…..awesome things began to happen. Things that so amazed me and restored every ounce of faith I ever had in God and his unsurpassed control over this world and everything in it. All along he had a plan, a plan he revealed to me in his own time, when I was ready to see it. And not a moment before then. So the lesson learned here is that we can not forsee our future. We can plan and dream but only when we follow God’s will for us do we truly receive the blessings he has in store for us. Most times they do not coincide with our own plans for ourselves. And most times they are far better than anything we could have planned for ourselves. So just be patient, let go of the past and grab hold of what God has in store for your future….without reservation….its an awesome ride!